While re reading over my op date confirmation letter – that I am currently in love with and want to frame I noticed that I am under a consultant called Mr Ashraf Messiha – um, hello – who are you? – not Mr Shorafa that’s for sure… I didn’t know if that meant I would be under his care or if he was performing the op??? – ever the detective I called Northwick and asked if this meant he was my surgeon, or was it Mr Shorafa? – The lady I spoke with said at the moment it could be either but I am booked in with Mr Messiha – oh, right… I will ask my ortho about this and say that I would like to meet with Mr M before I’m in a paper gown in a bed (call me old-fashioned lol). I am not overly happy about this – this will be the third change in my surgeon – I don’t really like change. It’s very strange to think I am handing my face over to someone I haven’t ever met …. eeerrrrrrr, I don’t like it (nervous tummy)… I see my orthodontist Mr Power in 2 and a half weeks so will ask him about it and see if I can meet with Mr Messiha beforehand…. Maybe its just me being an over thinker and a worrier but it does unsettle me… not much else to report right now, I have been really looking after my oral hygiene – flossing lots and trying to appreciate that in 10 weeks and 2 days I wont be able to brush my teeth properly for a fair while. I have the dentist next week for a routine check up and will book in a hygienist appointmnet in June – just before the surgical hooks go on.. yeah, the hooks, not the nicest thing but I’ll be so close to the surgery by then I don’t think I will care about how ugly they look – they go on 13 days before the op, and to the best of my knowledge will look something like this:
These are not my teeth but give an indication of what things will look like one they’re in – after surgery these baby’s will hold the new bite in place with elastics placed over the top and bottom hooks. I know these will help the new bite settle and will do a massive job in holding everything where it needs to be. I’m really pleased with how everything is spaced out in the lead up to this, right now I have the following booked:
9th May – Ortho adjustment
24th May – Holiday for 1 week
26th June – Pre op at Northwick
27th June – Surgical hooks go on at Wexham
I will have an appointment with James – the technician who will make my surgery wafers (guides) around this time too but this appointment has not been confirmed yet
10th July – 7am admittance to Northwick for the op
Even writing this makes me nervous, surgery is still two and a half months away but the reality of it all is setting in, I sometimes feel fine, not worried at all, then other times my stomach flips and I feel terrified, I can’t imagine what a mess I will be in July. I have so much respect for anyone that goes through with this surgery and can completely understand why people don’t choose to do it… like me 13 years ago when I was told at 17 that it was recommended that I do this. I guess now I am braver then I think I am? I know it’s the right thing to do, this has bothered and upset me for years and I cannot wait to have a bite that actually fits!!! 🙂
At the moment I am chewing on my left side most of the time, I have 3 or 4 teeth that meet and that’s it, my right side is very sore. It would’ve been better if I could’ve used my right side more as I don’t want the left side to be stronger as the muscles will be pulling that side (the side my jaw leans way over to) back to its original pre op position… I guess that’s where these magic hooks and bands will do their job.
I’m psyching myself up for “the talk” with my boss about the date coming through – I have decided I will do it on Monday 12th May – the Monday after my orthodontic appointment. That way I have still given him 2 months’ notice, and I will initially take 4 weeks out to recover. I’m not sure how he will react but to be honest the surgery means far more to me then his reaction.
I hope everyone is well and that your jaw journeys are progressing well.
I’ll update soon 🙂 x x x