So Here’s where things are at the moment:
I’m off to have my 3rd of 6 adjustments tomorrow, I have my 4th appointment booked for 24th January. I’m not really feeling the positive vibes at the mo, 3rd adjustment is still only just half way to the 6 I’ll need and this whole process seems like the end is slipping further and further away. I know that I am getting closer, and I am appreciative of that, I just seem to have hit a wall at the moment….
On top of this my boss took the micky out of how I talk at the mo ( to be fair I do hiss quite a bit when I speak and some words are not completely clear ) but that has really affected me, I obviously sound strange to other people for him to do this. I took it the first day and didn’t say anything, but he did it again the next day and I sternly informed him that I know that I sound strange, I know I can’t talk “properly” but that it wasnt my fault, I was doing something about it and I don’t appreciate his comments. he said I should learn to take a joke, to which I replied ” im not sure the HR lady would see it like that” – Go me….. 🙂 but seriously, it hurt me a lot and it just made me want to be on the other side of the surgery more than ever ….
The other side of surgery – well right now that feels like a mystical place, a place I am desperately wanting to get to but my key doesnt fit the lock right now…. ( I know that I went way overboard with the metaphors then but its the only feeling I can really liken it to)
I will check with my ortho tomorrow on how he sees things moving and if he thinks it may even possibly be 5 not 6 adjustments, but to be honest for the sake of an extra couple of months I would be happy for it to be 6 and perfectly ready.
so, 24th January for number 4, that means mid to end of March for number 5, then May for number 6… fast forward 8 weeks of movement to be ready for the yucky plasticine stuff to be shoved in my mouth again, x-rays (which I always smile in for some reason… Ali, it’s an x-ray no need to smile lol) and then the outcome again which takes me to July 2014, almost a year from the first lot of impressions taken for pre surgery….
One positive is that they have now found a replacement surgeon so they will have performed operations in the new role for about 8 – 12 months before they do mine…
***sigh**** I need to lift myself, maybe it’s just been one of those weeks.
I’m 30 next week and when I began this process I thought that I would be nearly done by my 30th…. so my hopes are that by November 2014 I will be on the other side of surgery, and maybe (but probably not) brace free. The braces are just there now, they are what they are and I have come to accept them as part of my face, its just the surgery I want to get done and over with, it’s quite draining to know that you have something like that coming and not know when… It is fair to say I do over think things, and my mind does go off on a wander frequently regarding all of this. I sometimes look in the mirror and move my bottom jaw from side to side to get an idea of how it all might look, but I think that I wont really know until after… I’m sure it will be much better then now and I cant even comprehend having a bite that meets properly. One thing that I am really looking forward to ( apart from obviously a bite that is aligned and a face that isn’t wonky) is having pizza without the need of a knife and fork… wow..imagine.. biting (yes Biting!!!) through a slice without the base being left behind…. it’s the little things I guess…..
Roll on tomorrow 🙂 xxx